Saturday, May 02, 2009

where did my appetite go to?

havent been eating my usual these few days,
eating like 3 meals a day...
reduced to 2 meals, n each meal eating half only,
n today, my mum asked me what i wanted for dinner,
n i have no idea.. so i just told her to get a burger for me from BKs.
forcefully eating half of it only, n putting the rest aside to eat later.
really no appetite for anything, well maybe water.
im just eating so i dont faint or go stupid.
i've known of stories where girls are aneroxic or bulimic,
n can die from that if they dont stop. but aiya im no where near that obviously.
n im sure i'll get my appetite back, so i wouldnt suddenly want to stuff myself 3 meals.
just taking it in slowly for now.
this is the 1st time in my whole life, that i actually lost my love n appetite for food.
im surprised really.
n bout appetite, i have none for my exams now.
i know i gotta score pretty ok for my accounts to pass overall.
but i really, seriously, cant continue since yesterday.
its not half done, no where near done.
pretty much prepared to retake it.
my mum wouldnt want me to fail, i wouldnt want to fail either.
yes yes, its time n money. but i dont have the energy to push myself further.
well what i can say is, this really sucks. :)

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